I was on my way home from work on Wednesday afternoon, and I decided to turn off the CD player (I’ve had a Maroon 5 fixation of late).  The next song that came on the radio was Natalie Merchant’s “Wonder”, which is a song I have always loved.

I got to thinking about the whole topic of change, and where change begins:  outer change begins on the inside.  My self-talk sucks most of the time.  I forget how to honor the amazing and magical person I truly am, because I get bogged down with what the world thinks of me – or rather, what I think that the world thinks of me.

First change of 2009: how I think of me.

Wonder – Natalie Merchant

Doctors have come 
from distant cities 
just to see me 
stand over my bed 
disbelieving what they’re seeing 

they say I must be one of the wonders 
of God’s own creation 
and as far as they see they can offer 
no explanation 

newspapers ask 
intimate questions 
want confessions 
they reach into my head 
to steal the glory 
of my story 

they say I must be one of the wonders 
of God’s own creation 
and as far as they see they can offer
no explanation 

I believe 
fate smiled and destiny 
laughed as she came to my cradle 
“know this child will be able” 
laughed as my body she lifted 
“know this child will be gifted 
with love, with patience 
and with faith 
she’ll make her way” 

people see me 
I’m a challenge 
to your balance 
I’m over your heads 
how I confound you 
and astound you 
to know I must be one of the wonders 
of God’s own creation 
and as far as you see you can offer me 
no explanation 

I believe 
fate smiled and destiny 
laughed as she came to my cradle 
“know this child will be able” 
laughed as she came to my mother 
“know this child will not suffer” 
laughed as my body she lifted 
“know this child will be gifted 
with love, with patience 
and with faith 
she’ll make her way”